Seasons of Change

8/26/22

(A post from August that never made it out into the world! Cheers!)

I had every intention of doing at least quarterly updates, but like every year Summer has managed to almost come to an end and I am left reflecting on almost six months! These months felt stagnant and full of change for me, all at once. I have not had so much time to think or so much time to myself, probably ever. I have been thinking about what action and inaction really mean and what exactly finding balance truly is. I have been thinking about the mission of this farm and how it will shape me as much as I will shape it.

I am finding that shedding season needs to last much longer than a spring for me. I am realizing that nature is in a perpetual state of letting go. The leaves are changing and dropping already. The biggest letting go I felt was when the creek dried up and the second was when it rushed back to life after long-awaited drenching rains. I have so many expectations of myself and others and the world around me. I feel like I can live in a constant state of disappointment

- or choose to live in a constant state of gratitude.

A lot of what we planned on changed or didn't happen for us this Summer. But SO MUCH DID! I am learning to observe and adapt. I almost wrote, "go with the flow." Which made me think of my middle school campaign slogan that my dad helped me with: "Only dead fish go with the flow. Don't be a dead fish, vote for Courtney and Krish!". That one has stuck with me. I value hard work over many things and have believed that working hard enough will eventually make things happen. I still think that's more or less true, just with the caveat that almost anything you work toward will be somewhat different than what you planned it to be.

I hope you keep working toward what makes your heart feel full and letting go gracefully of what isn't for you.

I hope you look at life with a beginners mind and are excited by getting something you didn't expect, rather than disappointed.

I hope you you keep growing and resting.

I hope you are grateful as often as you are graceful.